Dear God,
I can’t hold on much longer. Each time I think things can’t get worse they do. I have tried to be a good person, to help others, to be there and protect them, but I’m falling apart. There is no silver lining, no break in the darkness.
I have given up on anything good ever happening in my life. One thing I know for sure. If you don’t help me there is no option. I try to think positive but each time I do or think things will look up something worse comes my way.
Please hear me, please help me. My husband just lost his job, I’ve gained weight, our 1 car is dying, one of my cat’s is sick, my Diabetes is out of control, I don’t know when the last time I was happy or not stressed, we could loose our house, our bills are piling up, my mom could die, all the things I found joy in don’t work anymore, and my depression has escalated. I don’t want to die, but I do want the disappointments and constant worry, stress, and pain to go away. For once I’d like to have a happy year. Not perfect just not tragic and rout with pain. I feel like I have nothing left but the prospect of more pain. I can’t even help those around me to have a better life.
I NEED HELP PLEASE.
Nicole, Oregon/USA
If I answered, I'd tell her:
ReplyDeleteI'm only fifteen, but I've gotten to this point in my life before and it's not pretty. I know how hard it is when everything seems to be crashing down around you. I know what it's like to not want to die, but to also feel like you can't take the pain involved with living. I can relate in some way to all the things going wrong in your life. I've had and am having (more than) my fair share of tragedies, stresses, and pains. Unfortunately, I also know there's no magic word that will make it all go away. So don't waste your time looking for one. I could tell you to look on the bright side, but if you're anything like me, you'd rather not waste time lying to yourself. So here's the hard truth:
Your husband has been given the oppotunity to do anything in his career that he puts his heart into. You're body is just trying to get you to come to the conclusion that you need some outside help. Your house and bills shouldn't have any say on who you are or how happy you are. You're joy should always rest on God alone, because he will NEVER stop working. If your mom could die, that means she's still alive. You still have a chance to make sure the two of you will meet up again in heaven. You should always put yourself third after God and others. If you want to help others and protect them, have faith that God will use you to do so. None of this has to rest on your shoulders, Jesus put himself up on that cross to make sure that you know that.
If God answered... no, let me rephrase that
--GOD ANSWERS--